You gave too much rein to your imagination. Imagination is a good servant, and a bad master. The simplest explanation is always the most likely.
When you compare the sorrows of real life to the pleasures of the imaginary one, you will never want to live again, only to dream forever.
The imagination is always restless, and suggests variety of thoughts, and the will, reason being laid aside, is ready for every extravagant project, and in this state, he that goes farthest out the way, is thought fittest to lead, and is sure of most followers: and when fashion hath once established what folly or craft began, custom makes it sacred, and it will be thought impudence, or madness, to contradict or question it. He that will impartially survey the nations of the world, will find so much of the governments, religion, and manners brought in and continued amongst them by these means, that they will have but little reverence for the practices which are in use and credit amongst men.
The idea of beauty is the fundamental idea of everything. In the world we see only distortions of the fundamental idea, but art, by imagination, may lift itself to the height of this idea. Art is therefore akin to creation.[Идея красоты есть основная идея всякой вещи. В мире мы видим только извращение основной идеи, – искусство же фантазией может подняться до высоты основной идеи. И потому искусство есть подобие творчества.]
The great leaders of business, industry, finance, and the great artists, musicians, poets, and writers became great, because they developed the faculty of creative imagination.