Being disappointed is one thing and being discouraged is something else. I am disappointed but I am not discouraged.
Yes, I have tricks in my pocket, I have things up my sleeve. But I am the opposite of a stage magician. He gives you illusion that has the appearance of truth. I give you truth in the pleasant disguise of illusion.
The scene is memory and is therefore nonrealistic. Memory takes a lot of poetic license. It omits some details; others are exaggerated, according to the emotional value of the articles it touches, for memory is seated predominantly in the heart.
Only animals have to satisfy instincts! Surely your aims are somewhat higher than theirs! Than monkeys — pigs!
Once you fully apprehend the vacuity of a life without struggle you are equipped with the basic means of salvation.
Man is by instinct a lover, a hunter, a fighter, and none of those instincts are given much play at the warehouse!
It is only in his work that an artist can find reality and satisfaction, for the actual world is less intense than the world of his invention and consequently his life, without recourse to violent disorder, does not seem very substantial. The right condition for him is that in which his work in not only convenient but unavoidable.