You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.
When a man after long years of searching chances on a thought which discloses something of the beauty of this mysterious universe, he should not therefore be personally celebrated. He is already sufficiently paid by his experience of seeking and finding. In science, moreover, the work of the individual is so bound up with that of his scientific predecessors and contemporaries that it appears almost as an impersonal product of his generation.
This search for what you want is like tracking something that doesn’t want to be tracked. It takes time to get a dance right, to create something memorable.
The search and striving for truth and knowledge is one of the highest of man’s qualities — though often the pride is most loudly voiced by those who strive the least.