Now does matter. What happened before no longer exists. What will happen next has not yet been written. We have only now. That is our greatest advantage. What we do now, here, in this moment, has the power to determine the future.
You mistake my choice not to feel as a reflection of my not caring. Well, I assure you, the truth is precisely the opposite.
Typically, no one can know the future in the moment. One can only follow one’s instincts and hope the truth will present itself.