When you love a person, there’s always a tiny part of you that’s terrified that one day you’re gonna lose them.
You ever want to push a button and make it all go away? Everyone you ever loved and lost. Everything that ever hurt you. Just one button? No more fighting. No more regrets. No more noise. Blow it all up and see what happens.
When Mum and Dad died, I thought I was going to die too. I was sure of it. But then I thought, what if I was already dead? But nobody else knew, and I was walking around dead. But everybody could see and hear me. That was dreadful. It only felt like dying because, actually, I was still alive. You have to be to feel that way. I wasn’t dead. I was just really, really sad.
I can see the pain in your eyes. It’s very familiar. You’ve lost something. And now you’re frozen in time. Can’t move forward. Can’t go back.
Everyone loses someone they care about, Snow. The real test of character is what you do once they’re gone.
You’re so afraid of losing the people that you love that you push them away. And that’s why you’ll always be an orphan. You don’t need some villain swooping in to destroy your happiness. You do that quite well all on your own.