I just keep thinking about my wife and how I just want to get home to her, hang out with her, make sure she’s okay. Which is crazy, because she’s at her absolute worst right now. I mean, like, Exorcist level bad. But I still don’t want to escape her. Or my future vomiting, crap-riddled kids. I just, I want more time with them. I want to freeze time with them, so that I can get a little bit more.[to Miguel]
Grown children often secretly wish for an aged parent to die. And it’s not necessary for the parent to be a witness for the prosecution. It’s a taboo thought, but common. Particularly if the parent has lost all capacity for joy at being alive.
All you can do as a parent is try to pack the days with as much good stuff as possible and hope that it outweighs the bad. You hope that the good stuff sticks.